28 February

I have lived in Africa for eight weeks. Two months. It is enough time to realize that the newness and discoveries of daily life when I first arrived have been replaced by habits and acceptance and normalcy. I have a home here in Kenya. I have a job here in Kenya. I understand the rhythms now and they don’t shake me at every turn of every day. I don’t hear the birds so insistently, and I don’t notice everything with naïve wonderment. I focus less on things outside of my sphere of comfort: “Am I walking on the correct side of the sidewalk?” “Do I have enough water?” “Should I try to speak in Kiswahili?” “There’s a lizard on my wall.” “What do I do now that the power has gone out?” The panic is gone.

I am more accepting. New things are not as loud. I know I can survive and thrive and handle my time in this wonderful new space called Kenya. I can laugh at my ignorance and not try so hard to be right all the time.

I can be still and do nothing and work hard and get things done in equal measure.

I am not perfect. I still struggle. This is incredibly difficult at times. I fight things I shouldn’t. I get agitated.

I am lucky. I am grateful.

I am a Fulbright Scholar teaching and researching at Kenyatta University in Nairobi, Kenya in the Department of Theatre Arts and Film Technology and I have amazing students who challenge me every day.

And the mosquitoes are still the devil in disguise and I feel immature glee when my hand is fast enough to reach out and kill one on my first attempt. Take that you bastard!


This entry was published on February 28, 2014 at 7:30 am. It’s filed under Culture, People, Sounds, Teaching and tagged , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. Follow any comments here with the RSS feed for this post.

2 thoughts on “FEELING HALF WAY

  1. I’m glad you like it here. I’m a student at Kenyatta university

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